I’ve been thinking a lot about my mom lately; she passed away in November, 2010. This is for her. when I was five and life was a song of excitement and innocence the world was full of mystery and I had never felt the pain of hurt or loss of any kind and then one day a playmate pushed me right off the swing you picked me up brushed me off told me not to cry ‘mommy,’ I said, ‘it hurts’ when I was sixteen and in love for the first time to a young Cuban girl I felt like an adult doing adult things dates and kissing and groping and late-night phone calls with the cord stretched and twisted through the house and under my door and then one day she left me for another teenage crush and I felt world-ending anguish burning, hot, consuming as only a teenager can feel them you held me close told me I’d be ok ‘but mom,’ said I, ‘it hurts.’ when I was thirty-five at the end of my marriage holding on to it with desperate and futile hands trying to be a good father to my sons who put me on a pedestal high enough to rival the gods I fought depression […]
Continue readingRon 2.0 Officially Launched
January 5, 2008 
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On Saturday August 4th, 1990 Ronald Edward Sparks looked Samantha Lynn Beard in the eyes and promised to love her “till death do us part.” The date is now Saturday January 5th, 2008. I found out yesterday that my divorce from Samantha is final. I, Ron Sparks, am now officially divorced from the mother of […]
Continue readingThe Christmas Eve Tragedy
December 25, 2007 0 Comments
He woke slowly, fully aware what day it was. Christmas Eve. He lay in his bed, eyes closed, and let the significance of the day play through his mind. He tried to remember Christmas Eve over the years. So many wonderful memories instantly surfaced: * Walking in snow, a light dusting, in Maryland. * Wrapping […]
Continue readingWhat I Deserve
December 15, 2007 1 Comment
A year and a half ago I made a list of what I wanted in a woman. What would Mrs. Ron 2.0 have that I wanted and deserved. I was thinking this weekend about re-writing the list, starting over, but when I read the original list I realized that there was nothing to change. So […]
Continue readingMy Two Lives
February 14, 2007 2 Comments
Happy Manufactured Spend-Your-Money Day, people… Let me spend a moment telling you about my two lives. The absolute best thing I did when I split with the ex was to insist on split custody. My two boys and I are closer now that we have ever been. Every moment I have with them now is […]
Continue reading10 Things You NEVER Want to Feel
January 3, 2007 0 Comments
Stoicism is my best friend. I know I’ve been MIA for a while, people, but I figure it’s beter than subjecting the teeming masses with my moodiness. I’m still deep in recovery; it takes time you know. I was always the “brooding poet” – but I still haven’t figured out how to say goodbye to […]
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The Binary Biker 